Well... I was excited for this day... finally got a chance to play an actual game after like half a year or so... we did our usual warm up... and i was feeling very relaxed... maybe because i can hear the band playing songs... (listening to music ease my tension)... but the worst thing that i never expected was that i totally blank out during the game...
1) Did not bat well... practically missed the ball completely....
2) Ran towards 3rd base without knowing that someone was there...
3) Totally missed the ball upon catching at 1st base...
How was i feeling right after the game? Well... i felt disappointed... surprised... sad... like an idiot.... a loser... a newbie towards the game.. argh... everything was messed up during the game... i even felt like crying as i felt that my training went down the drain... lost all my confidence and the ability to fight on.... After thinking back... i realised one important thing.... that this is my last year in Fajar playing softball... i must get over this obstacle... if not i will never be able to come back... i will train even harder... to prove to myself and to others that i can do it...!